Diary of an Extreme Cowgirl

No I am not going to be on the show lol not tall enough lol
But I do work on Film and Tv in the SF Bay area. A friend called me up to see if I was feeling up to working as a Production Assistant on American Next Top Model.

The show is having open casting calls at the Westin Hotel  in San Francisco, Ca.

I will be in charge of making sure all the applicants have all the paper work filled out, Photos and copies of identification. Paper clips, staples, Skinny girls oh my.

My movie buddie picked me up and were are off to SF at about 5 am




It is pouring down rain and there is a line around the hotel 2 times. Oh boy this is going to be a long day.

Thankfully I am working inside all day :)
I do feel sorry for the guys outside handing out applications to those that did not print them out at home.





So as the potential models come in, they are told to sit in our waiting area. This area is filled with chairs, about 400 chairs. I believe we refilled this area at least 15 times throughout the day.

I then went row by row.
"Ok this row, please pass me your completed applications and photos, do not hand me any photos you won't let us keep"

Then I stapled the photos to the application. Do you have any idea how many times I was asked "when do we get our pictures back?" or they actually handed me their Social Security card..... Duh.... I also was asked a million times "which photos should I use" to which I would reply "I can not pick for you, use the photos that you think show who you are at your best" ...



I think at the time this was taken I had processed about 1000 models.. my brain had gone on vacation lol

Though I have to say, I think I look good for just out of a neck brace :)







For a while I got to be in the casting room with the film crew. Where each girl was asked a few questions on camera and height measured. Yes we made them take off their shoes and measured.








It was a ton of fun hanging out with my film crew buddies.

But wow was I tired
There is talk going around about two TV shows coming to the bay area..
Hope so because this may be the only work I will get. My buddies will look past the neck and give me a chance.

But no more stunts for me :(

Or adventures out of a neck brace. For an almost paralyzed person even though I was a quadriplegic for only about 24 hours, anyone that has been paralyzed or close to it knows that any time walking or waving is a blessing and never to be taken for granted.

We are planning the funeral for March.
So many people want to come and say goodbye.

Police have been stopping by all night and day to visit with the family.
People getting ready to retire are sharing stories with us of Grandpa when he was their mentor in the rookie years. He meant so much to many people.

All agree that the police force is a much different place now, but when grandpa was on the job he was very intimidating without having to do much yet still had a kind heart. He would give people a chance but he remembered everyone and you didn't get another free pass.

I miss him already. I have some auditions in a few days. Need to find a way to keep going.

Tonight the healthiest and most active person I know has passed away.
My Grand Father golfed every week and was at the Car Races every weekend as a Pit Crew Member. Yes you heard me. My 80 something grandpa was still out there in the pits putting race cars back to together.Always on the move and up for showing me how to fix my car or truck so I didn't spend a fortune at the repair shop.

I have learned so much from him. Replacing water pumps, breaks, break lines, cables, starter, fuel pump... you name it he showed me how to fix it. When my car would break, sure it annoyed me to no end, but it meant I got to hang out with grandpa.

There is too much about him to say right now.. Give me time.

A veteran of a war and local police force, His passing has come as a shock to everyone. A few wouldn't believe us. The local Racing world is in shock and speechless.

I for one lost it at the hospital. There I am standing there looking at what was my grandpa. I in my braces near screaming at the world.

I get a second life. I died and came back when many others in my place don't.

Grandpa is the second person I have lost, within weeks, that I believe deserved another life.

Why am I here?

He felt no pain from a brain aneurysm. We lost him in seconds.

FREEDOM!!!

Doctor said I am done with follow ups but to come back if anything gets worse.
I got a copy of my x-rays and Mri's but man I can't understand what on earth it shows lol.
I am still healing faster then anyone thought possible. I will start my Physical Therapy soon. The insurance is being stupid, just not getting back to me on where I should go for PT.
He said I have no restrictions but with a few exceptions.. Ah how is that no restrictions lol

So still not allowed to:
drive for a few more months
Jump in horse jumping competitions for 6 more months ( no prob, wasn't planing on it for a while)
Dive for another 6months (shoot)

well I guess I can live with those lol
But I am allowed to RIDE my horse!

Yey!
But I do need to get my horse in shape before I ride anyway so not going to be in the saddle for another month or two. Poor horse has been just sitting around or being turnout for an hour all this time. So not fair to just jump on and go riding.

Plus I sold a lot of my tack including my saddles to make sure I could pay bill and have a horse boarding fund. Disability only paid $200/mo so that didn't help much.

So need to find the money to rebuy tack. Problem is that I need a special kind of saddle.
A Lynn McKenzie special tree saddle. It is made for horses with big shoulders.

I would have loved for my friend Melissa to be there for my first ride. I miss her

I can't believe I am writing this.
After 10 years I was reacquainted with a friend from high school, actually all the way back to elementary school, who helped me look at barns, talk to, visit, and share laughs. A person so happy with the new opportunities heading her way, love for her husband and daughter and the biggest heart for humans and animals has been taken from this earth.

On Dec 26th my friend Melissa passed away. It has sent shock waves through the area. She was so helpful to so many and friends all over that anyone hearing the news is just speechless. The comments on her myspace are all the same, shock and grief.

How could she not be here?

I still think the phone is about to ring with her on the other end to tell me more about her trip to San Diego with her family. She got to live a dream and swam with dolphins. She was there to attend a special conference to attain a certification to specialize in Equine vet assisting. She was excited to go there and was talking many friends, including me, to go to next years. So excited to start working as an assistant to a trainer at a very nice barn. Just excited to see what was coming next.

I just can't believe that someone so wonderful, full of life and hope for the future could just vanish in a heart beat.

I and many many others will miss you Melissa. But I will never forget your hope and huge heart for all things living.

Thank you Melissa for being a friend. A wonderful unyielding friend.

So thanksgiving is coming up. Things seem to be going well.

Horses are going to be moved to new full care places I trust. Long story, but good news is true friends have helped me find full care places for them that I can afford. You just wouldn't believe the weirdness going on with people. You just have to shake your head and do whats right, even if other people seem to be on another planet.

I am moving around alot better. Left arm is just about normal, no more drunkin arm lol.
My brother is doing great too. Weaker but better. He was in the hospital for about a week. High fevers and pain. I teased about him being a football player needing all the pain meds and little ole me with broken neck didn't need any.. All in good humor

So foreboding feeling all gone or was it..hhhhmmm...

I am staying with one set of grandparents. Actually both sets are within blocks of each other so I see my other grandparents often.

Well my grandma, one I am staying with, has a sister that is in poor health and can't cook big meals. So grandma makes a full turkey dinner and then makes nice packets that can be reheated or frozen for later. Every year a few weeks before thanksgiving they take my Aunt, grandmas sister, the packets for her Thanksgiving and Christmas dinner as well as her gifts.

Nov 14, 2008 We drove up to clear lake, CA which is in the pretty forest hills of the Napa valley for a visit. Long car ride for me but I brought fluffy pillows and a book. I tested the pillows when we got to calistoga. For some reason I had this feeling I needed to find a way to lay down on the bench seat in the middle of the mini van while wearing a seat belt. Took a bit but I found a comfy way to do it and be safe.

We had our visit and was on the way back. In calistoga again my grandma talks about a few years back how on the way to my aunts house with that years dinner they were at a stop light and was rear ended by a pick up. The van took the hit well but needed some repairing but the truck needed to be towed away on a flat bed.

At that point I had the need to lay down. So I get situated with the pillow and the seat belt.

about 40 min later, we were stopped at the major intersection, that feels in the middle of no where, by sears point and American canyon, CA when that feeling hit hard.

Something is coming, go limp. Almost a pressure coming down on me. Was about to say something like look out when WHAM!!!!!

A full size 2007-08 chevy truck hits us about 30-40 mph. We hit the car in front of us and they hit the one in front of them. You can hear car parts scattering across the road/highway as other cars drive over them.

I ask grandparents "are you ok?"

They say yes but are more worried about me. I feel just great. The fluffy pillow held me in place and the seat belt kept me on the seat. It was the perfect place for me to be in that kind of accident.

By the time I got out of the car my grandpa is talking to the truck driver and the lady in front of us is still talking to the guy she hit. I found the camera and started taking pictures in the dark of the car we hit and the truck. OMG the truck!

It was smashed but the little mini van was like a tank. just a dent, a big one, but that's it!

The car we hit was nothing other then a little scratch.

The truck driver turns out to be a 16-17 yr old driver that just got his licence 3 weeks ago.

He is a wreck, not hurt but just emotionally distraught. His first accident and his truck is gonna need to be towed with a flat bed. He was so shaken that he couldn't talk to his mom on the phone. He handed it too me and I talked to his mom.

I told her that no one was hurt and that the truck was really bad but her son was ok just over come with shock. She is on her way and we try to calm the poor kid. The fire fighters arrive and start talking to every one to see if anyone was hurt, Grandma may have a bit of whip lash. When one walked up to me he looked around and said, "how did the EMTs beat us here?"

I realize he saw my neck brace and I said. "oh no I had this before the accident"

He asked if I was ok and I said yes. We laughed as the next fire fighter came and said the same thing. I then said "oh no I just come prepared" lol

EMTs arrive and they look at me and say "When did the fire fighters start carrying C-spine braces" lol I explained to them my accident and they are shocked I am not hurt. When I told them how I was laying down in the van with the belt on they told me "That was perfect. If you had been sitting up you could be back in the hospital right now worse off"

So the tow truck comes and tows the poor kids truck away. The front right tire seems to be broke off from the axle. We are in the van which is fine other then the dent in the back door and the girl we hit, who had left before the police arrived, said she didn't care about the scratch.

Grandpa wants to get rid of the van, its been rear ended at stop lights 3 times now. I said no way. That's a little tank. It took that hit like it was nothing. Its the safest mini van ever! lol

But I can't help but wonder what is out there that seems to be playing with me.

Did you notice the date. This happened one month to the day of my accident, off by only 2 hours.
"What may seem like a series of unfortunate events may, in fact, be the steps of a journey"

Is this the start of some huge strange journey, What is coming my way next?

Ha ha! kidding . I am not allowed to ride till spring.

I rode a coin operated horse that I have had for over 25 years. I repainted it a few years ago. But it is my horse though.

Well I am exceeding expectations, by alot. for those that don't know I was injured during diving practice and broke my neck after hitting the board. I am very lucky to have been taken out of the water safely and had a specialist surgeon put me back together.

But I have to wear this neck brace for another 6 weeks at least. I know, don't rush.

It also means I can't drive for 6 weeks. which means withdrawing from all classes which I was kickin butt in. I was so excited to go back to classes.

I wore one of those headbands with bats that are on those springs. I think they are called boppers or something.



Docs and nurses loved it lol.. They also kept saying I was a walking miracle cause they have yet to have a trauma as bad as mine just up and walk out.

I think its the stubborn cowgirl side in me. I am cowgirl tuff.

Oh and the patches of muted feeling will go away in time. They said its normal. After the appointment we went to the school to talk to teachers.. sheesh I guess everyone takes friday off argh.. but I went to see my swim coach. The dive coach is only there tues and thurs so I will have to hitch a ride up another time to hug him. Swim coach tells me my dive coach has taken this really hard. Turns out in the 20 plus years of his coaching, and we are talking big time divers. He is also 2008 coach of the year. but back to what I was saying. In 20+ years I am only the 4th student to get hurt, and no one was as hurt I was. Even in his own diving carrier he was hurt but only broken hand, nose etc.

I am sure anyone there watching was horrified. When I came into the pool area and the swim coach saw me walking to him he had this look of stunned belief. I know they were told I was going to fine but I think seeing is believing so I need to go see the dive team and coach to let them see that I am A OK The looks on peoples faces was fitting for Halloween. like I was a ghost walking by. that's how bad I was hurt. no one really had a good feeling that I was going to comeback whole.

Never count a cowgirl out but I have to admit that when they pulled me out of the water, and while floating in the water, I had bad thoughts too. When I got the tingly feelings I knew there was hope but I also knew that the fight was just starting.

I am so lucky that roseville has an amazing trauma and neuro team. they are amazing and all my follow ups are with the actual surgeons that worked on me.and lets face it.. every person that did anything that day has a huge part to play in me being here and moving. to read more about what happened see "Life is Short" .I was wheeled into the ER as a quadriplegic, BUT I WALKED OUT!!!:)

Note: Read "Life is Short" for full story on what happened

Well its been interesting.

True friends and old friends seem to come out of the wood works when something bad happens to a friend. It does not matter if you saw them just hours before or haven't seen them for over 10 years. True friends will come to help.

Even strangers from horsecity.com and other chat boards have offered help and boarding if needed.

Unfortunately people you thought were friends or appreciated your work and help you have given also let themselves be known.

When this happens just let the bad go and appreciate the good that comes your way.

I could dish out how I was shoved out of the barn I was working and paying board at but the important thing is I have the credit card proof my horses feed and care were paid for while I was in the hospital and for an additional 40+ days but they will be moved to new full care barns I trust around the 15th of November. Transportation is being arranged as well as a new home for one of my horses.

How on earth could I find new barns I can afford while still on house rest and needing assistance?

Well that is were the people from all over come in. They know who they are but I will point out a few.

First a huge thank you to my chauffeur and friend from high school, haven't seen in 10 years, Melissa F. She called to check up on me after reading on a chat board about my accident and when told of barn issues she was on her way and drove me all over contra costa county looking at barns. After negotiating a few places I found a great hole in the wall place with an arena, trail access right out the back gate and a hot walker for only $330/mo for a stud. Pretty cheap for the San Francisco bay area. And get this, I knew the owners from 4-H and its only a mile from where I am staying. I can't wait to get to know her again after all these years.

Thank you to Wendy a friend for at least 5 years both from the Internet as well as my annual Battle of the Barns team. She helped me find a place for my other two horses. A friend of hers just bought a foreclosed horse property that has a 16 stall barn. They have offered to board my 31 yr old TB cross and my 3yr old paint gelding for $150/mo each. Pretty nice. And they are very experienced with other TB horses that are hard to keep weight on. Wendy vouches for her and that says alot to me.

Huge thank you to Sandra. She has kept me from going nutts worrying about how to move the horses and to keep the peace. Ah serenity now! I will never be able to thank her enough but I will try.

My mare Bella will be going to a new home that I trust as well. They are arranging transport hopefully about Nov 15th. I will miss her but this is best for her. She loves attention and is super sweet and I can't have her just sitting being lonely.

Fate or something worse is stalking. You can almost feel it, or I can.

One week to the hour that I was rushed to the hospital fully paralyzed and system crashing, My 17 yr old brother is carried by my dad into the ER.


Ruptured appendix and on the way to septic.

He had not been feeling well for days. For some reason I kept thinking appendix but what do I know other then its bad.

The family once again is gathered in the lobby of a hospital waiting to hear from the surgeon on how bad it was in surgery. The Doctor came back down at about 2am I think to tell us he thinks he got all of the leaked fluid as well as the appendix out. Time will tell. If he gets super sick then we know that not all of the fluid was taken out. This is a potential death sentence.

The doctors saw me in my neck brake and said "wow you guys like hospitals, what happened".

When he was told he asked was it an ACSF surgery? I said I think that's what it was called. and then asked "you were paralyzed before surgery?" Yes.

"You are one lucky person the be walking right now"


They say things come in three's... who's next?

all I keep hearing is "Something wicked this way Comes"

Is fate done with me(us) or just getting started?

Some people might know already but on tuesday oct 14th I was rushed to sutter roseville trauma center.

I was at school having my college springboard diving team practice. It was almost over and we could practice any dive we wanted. So I got on the board and did a dive I have done for years, a plain back flip.

Something went wrong in the takeoff. I hit my head on the board. I remember hitting my head. then remember being in the water looking up and seeing a cloud of red. I thought "Oh crap, this is not good"

I tried to swim up and found that I could not move arms or legs. Now I thought "Oh holy crap, this is really not good" and kept telling myself "hold your breath, hold your breath".

Time slowed so how long I was in the water I don't know but I did float at the top and a wave pushed me over a bit and I took a huge breath and looked at the first set of eyes to say "help". I saw my coach and the look on his face is frozen in my head. Horror is what I saw.

The next thing I know I am under the water again with a lot of people swimming to me from all over the dive pool. Members of the water polo team and or the master swim team came running from the swim pool and jumped in after me. when they got my head up to breath I kept saying "neck, neck, neck,neck I can't move". They lifted me out of the water using spinal cord management rescue skills, and 911 was already called by my coach.

3 emt students were in my dive team and water polo team so I was in good hands. they kept asking me to wiggle toes or fingers but for a good while I couldn't. For a horse person or any active sport person knowing your neck is most likely snapped and you can't move is the most teriffing thing ever to face. What am I going to do.

I started getting tinggly feelings all over, which was a good sign. I could feel things and people touching me but the feeling is so hard to describe for you. It was just the weirdest thing ever. as I was loaded in the ambulance I could wiggle toes and squeeze a bit with both hands. I was also giving out phone numbers to get word out.

my mom was on the line and wanted to talk to me. They had not told her how bad I was just that I had a bad accident on the board. She was worried I wouldn't be able to afford the short ride to the hospital. I told her "mom, I really need to go now mom" the paramedic took the phone and said "I am sorry to say it like this mam, but your daughter it paralyzed right now and she needs to go asap."
6 min later I arrive at the er. wonderfully people. I was freezing, but that was good to me because I could feel it :) but the had to cut my favorite brand new suit :( I know I know small price.

Poor girls were trying so hard to get IV's in but my veins were just gone from cold and shock. Had the full range of x-rays, cat scans and mri's. Getting the mri they tried to put ear plugs in because it is so loud but my ears are small and they kept coming out. I told them it was ok the sound won't bother me. And I was right, I even had a lil nap all wrapped up in heated blankets.

I was wheeled into my room and sometime later my mom, step dad, dad, grandparents, sister,and others arrived. Still a lil fuzzy on who was where and when :) but hey I had a hole in my head so I have a good reason lol.

I remember the neurosurgeon coming in and saying I had to have surgery asap. I also remember that pain meds do not work well for me. Instant reactions to anything they tried so no pain meds for me. I even had the same problem when they gave me potassium. It burned so bad in my arm.
The surgen showed us the mri's and pointed out that my C3 disk was actually cutting my spinal cord. Without surgery I was guaranteed to be paralyzed with the very neck bump, even a small bump or turn of my head would finish the damage. So surgery was a go.

I have always had a high tolerance for pain but this really showed my so called talent. With little to no pain meds I was somehow able to turn it off. I kept falling asleep but seemed to be in little to no pain. Except for the times I was having reactions to meds. I was on a anti-inflammatory steroid that also was giving me issues but I had to have it to keep my spinal cord area from swelling and cutting more. So I was given it as slowly as my body would allow it.

Wednesday morning the adventure on how to explain where my car was parked and where my locker was over the phone. I told them locker 139. I had no idea that each row had the same numbers and there were letters in the number too lol.. but they got it and found my car. I figured that would be the hardest to explain because I parked in a lil hidden lot because people forget about those spots and they are right next to where my first and last class are.

Wednesday a friend from one of my horse chat boards, as well as a myspace buddy, came and brought a poster with lots of pictures of me riding and below the pictures was "all these horses and you hurt your head on a diving board" lol that was funny.

Now I have to tell you that my humor and joke cracking was at an all time high through this but I was terrified. Surgery where they cut your neck open, shove your throat over and mess with your spine, one wrong move and its over. Horrible feeling.

the surgery went great. the first thing I remember saying was, "can I have water now" and "am I ok".. I had not been allowed to have anything to drink from the moment I entered the Er so that was on Tuesday about 6pm and surgery was late Wednesday. I am told now about some other supper funny things like... my sister said "you look great, they must have done lipo too cause your thin" I responded with "awesome"

the surgeon told me and my family, but they remember better then me, that at first she thought that some of the damage could have been from the years of horses but once she got in there it was 100% from the board and the x-rays and mri's didn't really show how bad it really was. If I had not had the surgery it was only a matter of time till one tiny bump snapped it the rest of the way. surgery was the only logical option even though 2 of the out comes were just as bad or worse. Death or paralyzed anyway.

Thursday I woke up at about 4am and my dad was asleep in a chair. He just about shot out of the chair when I called his name. I asked for water and he got it. Yey! Water!!! They had me in a sea of pillows on my side. but at least I could see the tv now :) I turned it on and guess what. A movie that my dad and I liked to watch together. "Cool Runnings" talk about an underdog story to tell me that the odds may be against me but that doesn't mean I will be counted out. I asked dad to move his chair over to the side of the bed I was on so he could watch the movie with me.

Also on Thursday they had me up and trying to walk, I have sea legs but they work!!!!!

My right arm is fine with a little tingelies at the shoulder but my left arm feels like a log. I have strength in it and can move it but its sluggish. turns out when I hit the board I crushed some thing that goes to that arm. they tell me it should go away in time I just have to keep using it.

At about 7:30am on Thursday it was back to college... for my dad lol.. he went to my classes to try to talk to my teachers. The first class had a canceled tag on the door. argh and that was the class I really needed him to talk too. but the next class was my computer class and I thought my dad and my teacher would hit it off and they did. from the sound of it they had a great morning.

Dad had to get back to the bay area, where my whole family is. My grandparents, aunt and cousin came to visit :) later a friend came and stayed for a while. He also delivered so food for my horses for me to where they are boarded :)

Friday my other grandparents came and took me home.
So here I am, staying at family's house and I am not allowed near a horse or pool for 6 months :(
but I am ok, I think. Just scared of doing anything to mess this up. I looked right into my worst nightmare as a horse person, a para or quadriplegic. And to go along with my murphys law luck Tuesday as I was being sent to the ER "Target" left me a message wanting to offer me a job :(
sure now you call.

I had visitors everyday, and I can't thank everyone enough for letting me know that I do matter to many people. Being wheeled through a hospital in braces and paralyzed is the loneliest moments you will ever feel. Staring up at the sealing as the lights and sealing tiles go by, knowing that there is a possibility that this will the the view from now on. Oh course me being the smart butt I am I asked the nurse. "hey where's the plasma screen tv for the sealing" :)
but all the while shoving my horror and terrified thoughts as deep as possible.

I am so lucky. so many things could have gone wrong at any moment.

"What might seem to be a series of unfortunate events, may, in-fact be the first steps of a journey"

oh and for anyone who has had to live with a neck brace for a period of time, How on earth did you find a comphy way to sleep??? sheesh....

I will be updating this with more info as I remember or find horrid spelling mistakes :)

Now to arrange for my horses care. If I can't do anything with them then I need to make sure they are going to get turnout and other things they will need. Sigh

My lil Mischief turned 3 today.
Here is a slide show of his birthday photoshoot.

amazing recovery
Weight 900lbs
height 14.2

Ah no I didn't join Trumps new show lol

But Presicion Training likes what they see in me and have offered me an apprentice spot at the ranch.

I will be helping with the horses and learning more about the high end paint and quarter horse show world :)

something I always wanted to do.

They are even building me an appartment so I don't have to drive 2 hours one way.

So I am moving to the pretty foothills :)
My 3 other horses joined mischief there and its a famliy reunion :)

Saturday Mischief got to play free in the round pen for the first time after major colic surgery.

He had a blast!
Jumping and playing.

I have video but the sound is really loud and can't figure out how to edit it out.

he hit the 800 lb mark and is now 14.1 hands :)

well I had a job with UC Davis Med center in Auburn, CA.
That is the job I talked about in my tuff 2007 post.

Well, cutbacks needed to happend and the old saying of "Last one hired, First on fired"... well I was laid off not fired :(

but I was told that my chances of coming back were very small :(
It took so long to get that job.
The jobs are hard to find that pay enough to live off of.

well I will start my Job search tomorrow :(

but maybe I can find one in placerville and I can move there, it is so beautiful there. Peacefull, I smile all the time.

He is acting like the the old lil mischievious horse I knew :)
He is feeling so good he likes to jump around in his stall.

He will be able to play in the round pen or turnout next month.
I am following the time line given to me no matter how good he feels lol..
I swear if he can figure it out he will start doing cart wheels soon :)

April 8th
weight 785 up 45 lbs
height 14

well one month after leaving the hospital he has gained a bunch of weight and growing like a weed..

let's recap a bit though:

rushed to hospital on feb 14
weight 625
height 13.2 hands

surgery on feb 17
50lbs of dirt removed
weight 575
height 13.2

released from hospital feb 29 (leap year, a day that does not usually exsist )
weight 635 up 60 lbs
height 13.2

march 27
weight 740 up 105 lbs
height 14

yep on leap year.
He was released today and is now at a trainig barn in Placerville, Ca.
A friend offered to pay for a few month board at a nice place that can cover all his meds.

So, he is settled in his stall at Presicion Horse Training :)

They ended up not putting in the drain the other day.
His fever came down but there is an infection near the incision.
They didn't want to accidentally spread that infection closer to the colon, but because the temp came down they wanted to give him another 24 hours to kick it himself.

They took one or two staples out and it was draining a bit from that.
Yesterday his fever was normal, 98, lowest its been since before this whole thing started.
So if he can keep this up it would be great. He is still eating well and his poops are starting to be normal round clumps.

I think I have ulcers now lol.
Yesterday I was in so much pain, Migraine and upset stomach.
Sick when eating, sick when not. Just didn't feel good.

Today I feel a bit better but haven't been able eat since yesterday morning.
I will see him tomorrow.
They should be calling me soon with todays update.
I am usually there everyday to walk him.

Well he is not out of the woods yet.
I just got off the phone with the vet a second ago.
I couldn't go see him today cause I have a tire blow out.

Yesterday they ultrosounded him again, he keeps running a fever. low but still there.
It showed no real infection but something is buggin him.
They are putting in a drain right now, because they believe he has fluid in there that is leaking from his colon.

The drain should help clear that out. He is still eating and pooping though, which I am told are good signs.

He loves his hay and fresh grass by the barn. I walk him around abit and graze him about 5 min a day. I believe the techs do some too.
So keep the prayers coming, we both need it.

I think I am going to have a heart attach before this is all over, just so scared.